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frustrated I am alone.
Yes but why is this such a big deal? Why is this such a realization? well young people I shall explain.
For too freaking long I have depended on other people for my happiness
and time and time again. I have been slapped in the face. Always. Its
like yay something good going for me. oh crap... now I am alone and
nobody gives a flying poo. I always end feeling used and pathetic. This
is the end. The games are over. I am through with all the people that
take pride in making me feel like (dare I say) poo. I'm so sic of it. I
am sick of people and all their games. Its not that like I haven't seen
all this before. Its all the same but somehow I end up letting someone
get close to me and when they move on from messing with me.. I am left
alone.. again. This is bullcrap. I do not let them in. I shall go on.
And they will be left in the dust...ignored. And yes I will be
alone...but I will be happy.
Thank you for your time
leslie
July 20 2005, 05:56:29 UTC 6 years ago
if I may use my advise card for the week, why don't you just accept that the price of enjoying people is the eventual loss of that enjoyment? giving up on people makes about as much sense as giving up on eating just because a meal doesn't taste as good after its finished. everything you ever love in life will cause you pain when you lose it, and pretty much everything you ever love will be lost sooner or later. everything has a price; love is repaid in loss.
of course, you most likely would have come to this conclusion on your own, if only subconciously, without my intervension. conciously understanding this condition of life, however, can save you much anguish and depression without depriving you of the love most all humans crave.
July 24 2005, 20:36:18 UTC 6 years ago
You know... I really needed that. You're right I have just become incredibly frustrated over this among other things in my life. I think the reason that I go after these relationships in the first is not exactly for love but for my own enjoyment and entertainment which eventually leads to me finding something I like in that person and eventually I begin investing my feelings in someone that wasn't worth investing in the first place.. I think that makes sense. ok anyways thank you